LifeAsMwaa

Thanksgiving Break

2007-11-25T23:03:00.000-08:00

I don't mean to sound like a completely glass-half-empty person, but I was not excited about our Thanksgiving Break. Sure I got to hang out with some relatives and of course no homework was a plus, but then I got home from school on Tuesday and thought, "what the heck am I going to do for five days straight?!?" So that wasn't too cool. And I would love to be able to say I found something extreamly productive and helpful to do but that would be a complete lie, becuase in truth I did absolutely nothing, or very close too. I worked at our school's bazzar and froze, saw Enchanted with my friends, got some new music and made a 3 hour cd for cowgirl, played my guitar, and otherwise sat on my butt listening to music and getting nothing accomplished. And most of the time I was pretty sad cuz I missed my friends at school. And I was bored.

So that wasn't exactly the most exciting thing in the world, but we go back to school tomorrow so I'm pretty excited about that (yeah, geek, I know) but I mean seriouslly, I have litterally nothing to do all day. The break seemed sooooooooo long and I will just say I am very glad it's over......

Ooop!

2007-11-21T22:41:00.000-08:00

k wow, so I haven't posted since..um, for a month. But that's ok. Nothing beyond exciting has really happened to me. I'm getting my ear pierced on Friday, the cartlidge, so I guess that's about what I'm looking forward to, and my birthday's next month, so I'm taking my friends up to Forkes the weekend, where the Twilight series takes place, so that should be pretty fun. Wow....major run-on sentence... just yelled at for that in English.

Funny story of the day, I ADORE my trig class in school, not that class as in the subject of course, the class as in the actual class. Besides having the HOTTEST dude in the school in it, the table I sit at, unfortunately not by him =( is the funniest place to be ever. So this one kid's not doing too hot in the class and we were all talking about different subjects and he said something like "well I understand why I'm failing this, but in English I actually dos all my homework..." yeah, "dos" as in "dues" as in why the heck should he be flunking English right? Well it was quite funny.

Another little slip of toungue; a BFF didn't know who Axl Rose was, from Guns 'N Roses, and I said like, "Oh, well then I'll have to send you a pixel of Axer Rose..." and then busted up cuz it sounded funny. And cuz I hadn't had any sleep....cuz it really wasn't that funny.....except to me.

In otehr news I haven't tripped over anything f fell on my face in quite a while....that's a first.

So I had my two besties over last night and one fell asleep like, beore midnight watching TV, but Jo and I stayed up til 4 or 5 pretty much just doodling and drawing, bu thenw e had to go to bed cuz I didn't want my dad to come down and get ready for work and see us til awake. That would be bad.....

So today we got up at noon, at 1:30 me and some friends saw Enchanted at the theater which I thought was fairly dumb, not the worth the 7 bucks guys, and then went to Fred's house and played Guitar Hero. Then I came home....and did the same thing I usually do all day everyday, sitting, writting, and listening to Edwards, my MP3 player. I wrote one verse about the dude I like that I actually really like, but yeah, only one verse lol, not exreamly helpful....

Well we have a dance coming up! That's made things kidna stressful cuz see it was Sadies, and formal, then it wasn't formal, and now it's not even girls ask guys. It isn't even called Sadies lol, it's Winter Whiteout. So I dunno if I'm going or not, the guy that I really like is two years older then me but I guess stranger things have happened. I don't really wanna go by myself though....sorry cowgirl you might be on your own.....lol

K so that's life. If anything vaguely interesting happens I will be sure to let you know. Ugh...I erally need a party or something....anything lol. Boredness........

Nobody's home

2007-10-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

Guess what. I'm not home. Guess where I am. I'm not gonna tell you. Yay for Joey Girl she is 15!!! Happy Bday to all ppls and esspecially her. We had half days all this week it was pretty sweet but I was really bored. I'm gonna go now cuz Joey G don't want to say anything....jk she says hi.

Homecoming!

2007-10-18T17:05:00.000-07:00

So I finally decided I would attend homecoming, I'm not sure what exactly was holding me back, but I relaly didn't want to go. But I have convinced myself I will have tons of fun, not to mention I was practically death threatened by cowgirl....so I'm going with two of my besties, and I think we're just gonna rock and singles and lovin' it corner! Well tha's about the only update in my life, it's been really slow over here...school, homework, TV, sleep. Repeat. Tuesday was interesting, I had a guitar lesson, then a band concert, and in between I attempted to do my homework, but didn't get it all finished. I woke up at 5:30 the next morning to try and get it done, but that's didn't do the trick either. But I survived, so it's all good. I think we did a nice job at the conert though...so that's very good....

loooong weekend

2007-10-15T00:46:00.000-07:00

Wow usually busy weekends fly by but this one seemed really really long. I hung out at Fred's on Thrusday, went shopping with my mom and came back and spent the night, we were kinda pathetic I think we all fell asleep like by 2, that's what happens when you don't sleep all week...Friday my mom took us, us my family not us my friends lol, waaaa, out, we went to the mall to find some shoes, which we didn't find, and we ate at Cafe D'Vine, yay, I love that place, it's attached to Branches, the Christian bookstore, which I adore, I could spend days in there and they have a huge music section. Ummm, dunno what else we did but we were out almost all day. Friday we played at the hs football game, played instruments, not football, we lost of course, 48 to 7, but I think I already said that. Then Saturday I slept until noon, kinda hung around in my pajamas all day and then had a blast at the dance, of which I also already talked about. Then today omg, I slept until 2, I was so embarressed, but I got up and boys were gone, riding dirt bikes then I was quite bored today cuz my mom was studying Biology labs for school tomorrow. I went for walk and my dad and brother came back and caught me lol, I was out on the roads and they were there too at the exact same moment, then told me to get back home now. So I did and my mom "talked" to me alittle about wandering off, and now I have to stay in the neighborhood....that stinks. At least we have a trail...

My dad made this interesting dinner which was actually very good, and then I cleaned some stuff then came upstairs, got kickd off the computer, and then read Ecplise for the millionth time again, and now I'm almost done with it but I had to pee then got distracted by the computer, so here I am. Now I'm just kinda sitting and thinking, and not really knowng what to do. I'm really really hot, and don't know why, I just feel like I'm burning up. Ya now what's weird? I have a really high body temp, I always have, I had feveral freakouts when I was little, but I just run at like 100 most of the time, but I always feel cold. Except right now, I'm really really warm, I should check my temp lol, maybe I'm actually really cold, that would be kinda odd. Kinda odd seemes to be the story of my life though, so I wouldn't be too surprised....

Ok I eriouslly need something to do durng the day, so that at night I can do all the stuff I was supposed to do during the day, get it? I will find something, though any advice would be very helpful....

Ugh, tomorro'ws Monday, as long as the weekend seemed I still don't want to go back, at least it will give me something to do. I am so not excited about school though. Well I guess that's that, so.....I'll talk to ya later. Love ya!

Ha ha ha awesome tests

2007-10-14T20:36:00.001-07:00

So I saw this on cowgirl's blog and had a blast doig these quizzes, here are some of my results...

You Are 44% Girly
You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie.You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)
Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

Your 1920's Name is:
Dixie Freda

You Are 64% Healthy
Your diet is quite healthy, but you don't too crazy with what you eat.You know how to eat what's good for you, but you're also careful not to deprive yourself.

Your Hair Should Be Purple
Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights.

Your Career Type: Artistic
You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.You would make an excellent:Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

so yes.....that was fun....you should check them out....

Dance!

2007-10-14T01:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, I went to my friend's church dance tonight and had a BLAST! It was really fun, nothing exactly exciting happened, but it was just cool to get out and hang out with my friends, I'm been stuck in the house a lot. We had a bunch of sugar before we left so that helped the mood too. So yeah...that was today. I got up at noon, well later then noon actually and kinda just sat around and ate Halloween candy the whole day, I worked on my costume a little. Oh and I was going to run but not even past the first mile I had a major sugar crash so I just kinda walked around a bit then headed back in for a shower. My brother had a football game and the won, sso that was cool, they had to go into overtime and then they scored a touchdown. Our highschool football team lost miserably on Friday, 48 to 7 I believe, I was there, playing that dumb pep band music....and it was really cold. Anyways that was the dance, thanks so much fred for taking me!

MR FACE IS RUINING MY LIFE!

2007-10-09T17:18:00.000-07:00

So....you're probablly aware that I am not happy with school. In fact there is really only reason I am going to school for, and sice tha is about to change I am officially looking into homeschooling, and since my mom is at school during the day that erlaly makes it perfect for, house to myself, all day, I can get a job, do some classes online, and have time for everything else in my life. Not to sound like an absolute teenager, but I seriouslly see school as an almost compelte waste of time. last year was great, I had lots of clases with my friends, mostly, lunch was amzing, and I was busy enough when I got home to not be able to worry constantly. This year I see one friend the entire day really, am learning nothing I am ever going to need to know in the future, and don't have enough homework, can you beleive I'm saying that? I mean, I still don't get it done, cuz i can't initiate myself to just start the little bit that I do have, but just....ugh. But that wasn't my problem...not today.

You probablly already knon that I deeply dislike my Band teacher, aka mr. face. I won't go into that, so just believe me, he is not en easy person to get along with....

So I was trying to turn in my fundraiser money this morning before class and he just gives me this look and says, talk to me after class. So I talk to him after class and he goes, please come into my office. So I do, and he starts doing a whole bunch of stuff and starts muttering about my schedual and stuff, and I'm like, just confused, I mean I'm just trying to give him money, seriouslly dude, get a clue. So he finally turns around and goes, "I would like to move you to Wind Ensemble. You have geography apparently but...." and he messes around more, "Mrs. whoever teaches that 4th period too.....so that would work, and then..." and he goes on about moving my entire schedual that I just got straitened out around so that I could be in a different band for him. Then he goes, "We'll move Jo and cowgirl (with thier actual names of course) too, we really need a whole French Horn section, so we'll just see about that, and, oh..." and he point to a corner, "you can grab some entertainment books in there. So.well I guess I'll fix this out and let you know....is that ok?" so I'm way confused, I'm just like "what....?" and he "explains" by repeating he needs french horns in wind ensemble, and I asked if he already had any and he says yes, on, but.....she does trumpet too, or some excuse under his breath....so then he said he'd "figure that out" and then I left. Not very happy.

Well let me clarify a few things before I move on, 1) our highschool has two lunches, early and late, and you might rememerthat me and my friends got completelly spit up, two of us in mine, early, and the rest in late, that was bad. But mr. reason I go to school happens to be in early, so that's ok, and 2) the only reason last year I didn't switch to homschooling was because I had come classes with my friends, since I don't this year, the only reason I'm not homeschooled is because of Edward, in my band and in early lunch....and sadly, I'll be honest though it's very pathetic, he's the only reason I'm still in school. Sorry BFFs, I have no classes with ya and you've just been demoted, ha ha ha totally jk, but you guys know what I mean. Right? Good.

Well, if mr. face switched me to this other band, I would obviouslly not get to see Edward in band, that would be a major bummer, but there's always lunch right? Wrong, what period did mr face say geography also was? 4th, that means late lunch. That means not early lunch, which means I wouldn't see him in lunch either. On the other hand, I would be in lunch with the rest of my friends, but I would leave my BFF in early lunch, and she'd be all alone and that would be really sad. Of course she's gorgeous and popular by herself so she'd have somewhere to sit, but I would still feel bad.

See my dilema? I mean I'd hate to think the main stress in this was over a guy but I'm very disturbed to say it is. Partially. The advantages of switching would be A) higher level music, better scholarship possibly, more challenging and fun B) I'd get to band with 2 or 3 BFFs, C) I'd get lunch with 2 of 3 BFFs and lost of other friends I miss so much and D) I dunno if mr face really gave me a choice, oh, and one more E) I wouldn't have to do pep band. YEEEEEEEES. Reasons not to switch A) BFF 3 of 3 would be alone in geography, lunch, and band, yikes, B) I would see Edward in band, omg he is the most amazing thing to see ever in band lol C) I wouldn't get to see Edward at lucnh, even though he sits with his girlfriend and it really just depresses me more than anything it's still w onderful to just watch him, D) I'm really enjoying the music we're doing in Symphonic, as chessey as it is, it's very fun, lots of good horn parts and E) Well I'm just kidna getting atached to all the cool peeps in Symphonic, I mean not really but I need another reaosn so it's even.

I guess I'm just annoyed at mr face for putting pressure on me, which I really do not need right now...or ever, but especially right now. I mean I ate an entire bag of chips, like three candy bars and a containter of granola, that's how stressed he made me. Argh. Ok well I dunno why I'm so ticked about this, it really isn't that difficult, but I just feel like being ticked and he seems like the perfect canidate to be ticked at.

Hmmmm, ya know if I as never a band geek I would never have to deal with this....

2007-10-06T23:46:00.000-07:00

Wow...I can't believe Saturday's over. I dunno what I did Friday, I didn't feel to well, but that day went by really fast and now Saturday's gone, and just omg, life's way too short. Today my brother had a football game, 6 to 7, they lost by one...then we went to an Asian market, then got some lunch at the community collalege here, they were having like an internation little gathering sort of thing, anywho's they had food, it was very good. We looked at some futons for me, my faves I finally found on the internet today, here's the urls... http://www.bedroom-furniture-direct.com/Elite-Products-55-6118-CP-EL2130.html#ReviewHeader this one's very pretty and te cheapest.... http://www.modernlinefurniture.com/newexdebllea.html this one's my fave and leather and almost exactly like I was imagining before I went on my futon hunting spree. I want one for my room by the way, instead of my bed...

We came home and did some Halloween decorating, then I went to the movies with two of my friends and that was very very fun, we saw "The Seeker" it was pretty good, a little random though. Then I came home and bugged my mom with my brilliant Britsh accent until she told me to go away, and now I've been e-mailing cowgirl, and looking for futons. I can't believe the weekend went by so fast! That's so crazy I don't know were the time went....ttyl!

Life Today

2007-10-04T21:33:00.000-07:00

Ugh today was so uneventful, I was really bored, but I really have a lot to do, a lot to study for. I worked on some songs, worked on guitar, piano, lots of music today, but no MP3 player cuz, as always, the battery's dead. I really have nothing to say. So.....I guess that's it. Edward hugged his gf again at lunch, and Jo was kidna sick today and didn't feel well, that stunk. I have a dumb way of my emotions morphing into those of the peeps I really love, so I didn't feel too hott today either. I've been trying to work on not complaining so much though, lol, that's working alright in my actual speech, but not so well when I'm writing....aka right now. Cuz all wanna do at the moment is complain. But I'll suck it up. I went rolar skating today! Not anywhere special, just around my neighborhood, about 6 miles, that was nice to get out, the air was so soooo perfect, and then when it got dark it was really really nice, but my parents weren't home so I figured I should be inside, that took a lot lol, I really wanted to wander around. I went all this week without taking a nap, I guess I've done that before lol, but usually I come home one day and am out as soon as I sit down, not sleeping at night can really get to a person...and I think I've had in one week the amount of sleep youre supposed to get in one night....though the cookies we made have done some good. I was quite hyper tonight. Ok well that's one big paragraph of nothing, I think I'm gonna go now.....I really don't want to...I don't know where to go. I want to go outside...it looks so so perfect right now. I need to do something, dance or somfin, get myself excited...Oh I don't remember if I wrote about it yesterday but I saw one of my oldest BFFs yesterday, gonna call him Curly Top, he switched schools a year ago and that really got to me, I missed him so much, and now he goes to a different high school, and he's a MAJOR soccer fanatic, he's so good at it, so he has practice 100 miles away a few times week, football after school, and games for both of them on the weekends, needless to say I haven't seen him much. But he was actually home yesterday and we stopped by so that was really cool. I really miss him.

Ok my blob of a paragraph is done. I'll go now....buh bye....hope you all are having more luck with any sort of inspiration then I am....

Yay for October!

2007-10-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

Wow, first day of October! I can't wait for Halloween, I have a pattern for this awesome dress, purple and black and really gothic looking, and omg it's going to be really really cool, if I ever get around to actualy finishing it, which I WILL.

I was so sad and lonely today at school without my Freddikins! Lunch was horrible...and getting off the bus this morning and not seeing everyone was so so sad! Ugh and Fred I really needed you at lunch today....I wasn't doin' too hot cuz Mr-dude-I-am-spying-on, aka Edward totally hugged his "gf" like, twice and besides that he had curly fries and I really wanted something hot and they sounded really good. hmph, I hate lunch!!!!!

I started reading Twilight again today. That was cool, Monday's are usually ok cuz Dancing with the Stars just started again so that's pretty sweet, and so I watched that and read during the commercials, and now I really have to do my homework which I am not looking forward to. Oh! And yesterday I believe, I got a new idea for a book, or some writing anyway, I was inspired by Johnny Depp lol, we watched Secret Window again, I love that movie and there is no reason to love it. Anyway I'm working on a new plot so it will be intersting to be to se if I get any further then 50 pages.....again. I know someday I'll find a story that sticks....

Hey buddies we SO need to get together! I miss seeing everyone all at the same place at the same time, school is so horrible we're all split up, so I say....Friday, or next Friday, we all meet somewhere and rock out til we have to go to sleep. Where should we go, any ideas???

So...life's been treating me pretty good these days, I mean life's not fair, but compared to some past parts of my history I've been doing pretty good recently. I've been the perfect amount of busy this week and weekend, just enough homework to keep me focased, a new story idea, inspiration to run, or at least get in a few crnches lol, and my Halloween costume to work on, and then making sure I say hi to my buddies. I can't stand not being busy enough, but today was just about perfect, besides the fact that I have not yet done my homework, but I got to watch my show, so that made me happy. I really want to dance!

So I suppose that's all I have to say for now. I can't decide whether or not I want to sit down with the books, geography quiz tomorrow, or....find someing else to waste my time on. My guitar did not get to move today, we're both very sad, and I don't think I'll get to practive before lessons tomrrow, oh well.

Oh my gosh it was totally creepy today....Mr. Face get's really annoyed at Edward in that class, and Edward kinda...disapears, it's so awesome and freaky and just, omg, he's so cool. But anyway he never gets caught but today I totaly saw him sneak out the door, and I know no one else saw him, I was watching people, except for Mr. Face, and he totally locked him out! So while we were working I of course was staring at the door and then about 5 minutes after he left, and Mr. Face locked the door, Mr. Face went back to the door and messed with it again, and then waked back and I looked around the room and Edward was already back. It was insane, I mean if you know what room I'm talking about then you'd know there's two ways into it, one though another room, but I was watching the main door and I can see the other one out of the corner of my eye and I swear he didn't come in through either of those. It was insane. Omg he is so much like Twilight's Edward...you would not even believe it....hey cowgirl check out the very top of page 74, the first book, uncanningly true....

Ok so I suppose I through here....geography calls! Ugh, so does Science and English....waaaaaaa. : ( Love ya all! Home you have more intersting things to do then I do!

Healthy Me

2007-09-29T18:34:00.000-07:00

Hey guys I have decided I want to be healthy lol. I mean there really is no reason to fill your body with junk just because it tastes good right? Right. So we went to the Body Worlds exhibit yesterday and it was very interesting, and really made you realize how much what you eat effects your body. it does like, alot.

So who's with me? I'm not saying no junk food of course, just.......only a little junk food. And more excersise. I want to live to see my grandkids, and there's diabetes, heart probs and tons of other stuff in my family that I don't want to get. Fruits and veggies are awesome, I just don't seem to crave them as often as uhh, cookies. And chocolate.

So here's my proposition....for the month of October. I'm going for it so you should go with me ; 1) only one sweet/bad thing a day, ie. potato chips, chocolate, ice cream whatever... 2) At least 3 fruits/veggies a day, I mean I think we're supposed to have like 3 fruits and 3 veggies, but for now I'm saying 3 total, and 3) 30 minutes of excersise at least 5 days a week. Horse-back riding included, of course, and walks and hikes and like major inense house-cleaning and so on.

We can so totally get this, so I say rock on fellow heathy ppl!

2007-09-29T18:30:00.000-07:00

Hey guess what! Burgerville now has hot dogs, even more reason to go there besides the fact that they are the best burger shop ever! I tried them tonight, and I approve, they're very good. We ate out three times today....McDonalds for breakfast/lunch, high school concession stand for lunch/snack, and Burgerville for dinner. I am going to be so sick tomorrow.....

Tworanges and twilvers

2007-09-27T23:21:00.000-07:00

Guess what I have a major growing pain in my thigh , it hurts really bad, and I'm still really bored and wish I was able to sleep at least sometimes..... Sorry I just felt like complaining....

So.....ya know how supposedly nothing rymes with "orange" and "silver"? Well whoever said that was so totaly wrong, cuz guess what was just invented today by yours truely? Tworanges an twilvers. Ya know the lines in the road? The yellow ones in the middle and the white ones on the sides? Yeah, well the white ones are tworanges, and the white ones are twilvers, so pass it around, the Englsh language has two new words as of September 26, 2007. And orange and silver officially have rymes...

I have three tests tomrrow, and since its a half day (YAAAAAAAY!) that means one every period, science, trig, and English. Fun for me, actually I don't care a whole ton but that's alright....

We had two guest speakers come in and talk to our Geography class today, it was really cool. They were missionaries in Argentina, my dream job, just not in Argentina, and they just told us about life and cultures there and stuff it was relly cool. I love other coutries so much, Mexico's one of my favorites, I need to go back there so bad! Who's up for a vacation?

So....anyone have plans for weekend? I have been so bored this week but I think I'm gonna be fairly busy now, we're going to some museum thing tomorrow, after my mom gets out of school, and then on Saturaday we are going on a train ride, I am not excited about that at all. I'm quite scared of trains, they make me so nervous, and I have already really really begged not to go but apparently we've already bought the tickets, ut I'm not done with my beging yet, I really really don't want to go. Then my brother has a football gae in the afternoon, and then Sunday's church hopefully and we're celebrating my sister in law's birthday at my grama's house for dinner, so that should be fun. So in canse anyon cares and I don't get a chance to get on here, that's my plan for the weekend. What's up with anyone else?

Oh and I've said before I'm looking for a job...if anyone has any ideas please please let me know, I need $2000 for a mission trip to Peru and several other things so any ideas would be really awesome. Thanks, and love ya all!!!!

New Fave Song

2007-09-27T21:01:00.000-07:00

Ok so Skillet is one of my new favorite groups, thanks so much cowgirl! And a new favorite song, amoung many other Skillet songs, is "The Last Night." Here's the lyrics, the tune really pulls it together though...

You come to me with your scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye I didn't want you to see me cry,
I'm fine But I know it's a lie

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say It's just a phase,
you'll be o.k. you're fine But I know it's a lie (Chorus)

[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me a chance I will help you hold on Tonight Tonight

[Altro:]I won't let you say goodbye And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me Away from me

"The night it so long, when, everything's wrong" that's so so true isn't it? The times you need time to be by the fastest, when everything's wrong, that's whe time passes the slowest.

So that's my song, here's a video, not thier video, but you can hear the song anyway, it's so beautifull.... http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZmtSq1jzPy4 enjoy!

Life today

2007-09-27T20:39:00.000-07:00

I finally got to spend time with my BFFs today, that was really cool. Today was a half day at schoo, which was also really cool, I was excited. I went to bed at like 7 last night, and sorta layed there for several hours, still woke up completelly not awake, but it was better then my usual 3 or 4 hours. I found a battery for my MP3 player, in my backpack yesterday, and that was really really awesome, I finally got my music back!

So I got home today at 11:30 which was AWESOME, and seirouslly felt like I was gonna puke, same as I did yesterday, so I was really hungry cuz I hadn't eaten much yesterday, and not much today either, but I still felt really sick so I skipped lunch again, waaaaa. I did my mom's list of chores, she was at school, and played my guitar for a while, I just got "Yours To Hold" by Skillet, so that was fun to practice, I love that song so much. About 2 Fred picked me up and brought me to Jo's, she had to do her homework first, and then we hung out for a few hours, then I had to leave at 5. I went for a walk in the dark, and wandered for a while in the woods a little ways away from my nieghborhood, then decided that wasn't to intelligent when I couldn't see, so I came back, and made a CD for my sis in law's Birthday, I'm quite proud of it. And now I'm bared, man I need a job soooooooo bad. Actually I want to take dance, but see then I'm spending more money insteda of getting out of debt...

Well I totally got my heart broken a few days ago, and agian today. There's this e-mail forward I got from a friend about the power of Heavenly Father, and it was a bunch of situations where someone important or famous or something was introduced to God, dissed the Bible or Jesus in some way, and had major consequences later, a lot of deaths. It was quite scary, but all true, and they all died within days of when they said bad things about our Heavenly Father. Well I've had a really good friend since Kindergarten, who apparently got that e-mail, and then forwarded it to a few people with something like, "Ever heard of coincidence? Anyway please don't send me this kind of junk." that really really hurt me. He's not as close to me now as he was when we were younger, but it still really really just like, stabbed me with a realization, I knew he believed in Evolution but I hadn't really thought he was so strong against God.

So I replied to him, asking what he believed about that, and got back, "I'm atheist. Yes, I believe in Evolution." and that was about it. That just really hurts me so bad, one of my best friends, not having the most important power in the world. Not going where I'm going after this horrible life. It really stings.

Happier note, I finally got down some food, and I'm feeling better, a little....so that was my day....anyone done anything interesting???

Average day...

2007-09-24T23:12:00.000-07:00

So today was pretty typical for me I guess, I did have some random mood swings cuz one, I thought for sure my crush wasn't dating the girl I thought he was dating, and was very very ecstatic about that, but then found out that yes, he did have a girlfriend, so now I'm really bummed. I wasn't very happy in band, health and fitness we played volleyball so that was fun I guess but I had no energy whatsoever, and I totally collasped on the floor from laughing so hard and not being able to hold myself up. Oh yeah I forgot my bus ride to school, it was very enjoyable, I listened to my friend's IPod as always. So lunch I was asolutely thrilled cuz I thought for sure I had Mr. Crush figured out, and I was kinda out of it until I got home, and then heard the news from my "sister" that she talked to him for me and he did have a girlfriend, though he wasn't spicific as to exactly who that might be, I have one girl in mind, who I was suspicious of before, but today he totally hugged three other girls at lunch and none of them was her....

I actualy got to run today! I was very excited, I was like dead tired but totally energized after my run, and when I got back convienently the nieghborhood boys were all riding jumps in front of my house so I hung out with them for a while, then really really needed a shower so I said I'd be right back, took the fastest shower I've ever taken and when I went back out they were all gone...waaa lol. So then I was bored again, and I can't seem to locate my devotional book.

I convinced my dad to take me to Barnes and Noble cuz I really needed a book for English, and then I also got Twilight, so I am very hapy now I can read it and don't have to borrow it from someone! Seriouslly, everyone HAS to read that book.

And then I helped with dinner a little, pork chops and aweosme green beans from our garden whic I absolutely ADDORE, and that was about 8 when my mom got back from little bro's football practice, then we watched the premier of Dancing with the Stars, they don't have anyone too huge on there this season I was kinda bummed, and then I attempted my homework but ended up calling Fred for answers cuz I couldn't concentrate. I guess between all that today I kinda ate dry cereal and was online alot looking at random sites, it was a really boring day, and now I'm still totally bored...I so need a job....

How's life going for anyone else???

The best songs ever...

2007-09-24T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody I need to know your favorite song or songs, I'm trying to put together a list of the songs everyone needs to hear at some point in their life, so I guess it doesn't actaully have to be your favorite, just ones that you really can't get thought witout listening to at some point or another....any ideas would be wonderful!

2007-09-24T00:08:00.001-07:00

I still have no triple A's...

Anyone know...

2007-09-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

Why is it that you are at your most energized time of the day only when there is nothing for your energy to be good for?

I Heart Edward!

2007-09-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

You guys totaly have to check out Stephenie Meyer's new book, the first chapter's published online, it's awesome. So for anyone who has no idea what I'm talking about, Stephenie Meyer's is the mastmind behind the supposed trilogy Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse, three of the most amzing books I've ever read, vampire love stories, with every part of literature you want in it. Well "we" were all very upset when the third "last" one came out in August because, sob sob, no more Edward. But.....I just got news today from miss cowgirl4christ that Stephenie's not only working on a forth book, but she's sort of re-writing Twilight in Edwards perspectve! It's really amzing, but I reccomend you read the actual series before you read the new chapter. So here's the link to Chapter One in Edward's Story, Midnight Sun.
http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/midnightsun_chapter1.pdf
And the Stephenie Meyer's homepage is http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/ if you are intersted in the books, they are so amzing and seriouslly, no gir should ever go without reading these!

They're also making a movie! I have to idea how they're ever going to cast someone as Edward, but I wish them luck, Stephenie on her books and the director on the film. Happy Everyday!

Mom's sick...and the ussual ramble...

2007-09-23T22:30:00.001-07:00

So guess what, my mom got sick right before we went camping on the beach, so she was kinda miserable I think she had what I had right before school started, but if she doesn't and I pick this up, which I probablly will, I'm not gona be happy. Yeah I don't exactly have the best
immune system, I seem to be sick all the time, or just not feeling quite right.

I am so not ready for Monday..I figure if I stay up all night the weekend wil last longer, but you know it really won't. I didn't have a very relaxing weekend, my family and I were all kind of on edge, which is wierd, we're usually pretty calm, there just seemed to be a tension, you know like when you're waiting for the end of something, but there was nothing coming, so I don't know we were all like that. Yes it was a very intersting weekend, another one wasted, gone by way too fast. I did get some guitar in there, I'm working on a riff and it seems to be taking up a ton of my time, though it's not really that difficult. I haven't really picked up my horn at home, just in band, which I am not happy with, as I said, at school, so that's getting a little boring with nothing to work on cuz I'm not doing lessons for that. I think I'm gonna stick with guitar until I really get the basics down, then go back to either horn or piano, I love them all, it's so hard to have to choose which one to do lessons with, I just want to do them all all the time, but that would be $80 a week, just on instrument lessons.....that would be bad.

Speaking of money I so need a job. I would totally work like just maybe 5 or 6 hours a week, I mean I'm usually swamped with stuff to do but if I really schedualled stuff well I could get in at least that. I was thinking about that a while ago, and I brought it up with my mom and she said that would be great, but I mentioned something about it a little later and my dad blew up for some reason, and that was an absolute no. In spite of that I've been keepng my eyes opened for anyone willing to hire me, did you know here 14 is legal age? Ad well I've decided I would really like to be a waitress, kinda interesting as to why, I mean, working at Forever 21 or something would be fun, but I think I would really enjoy serving people, I mean, as a symbol that's kinda what we're here to do, right? Like, our purpose on earth, to serve Him by serving others. I mean that's not why spicifally I've decided I want to be a waitress lol, that's just because I really think it wold be fun, for me, cuz I'm a little strange...but it just sort of makes sense....I don't know.

So....I'm out of triple As for my MP3 player, that's rather depressing, I don't sleep well and when I don't have music, well I sleep even worse, so I really need to get some tomorrow. I went through the entire battery this weekend, as in I put a new one in on Friday right before we left, and then when I sat down in my room about 3 today it was dead. That was rather depressing.

I don't know how many writers I have reading this, but I write quite a lot, and you know when you have been writting a lot lately, and then when you say something then in you're head you're like "she said lazily" and such? Well that's really obnoxious....really really. I love writing, and reading of course too, but that's a major downfall to it, one of the only downfalls really, and it probablly doesn't really bug anyone but me....alot of odd odd things bug me, esspecially recently...like the way my brother eats with chopsticks, or how my mom stares down her food, it's just kinda wierd, but I'm not just like, curius about it, I'm downright annoyed to the point that I'm like "Why are you starring at it!? It's not going anywhere!" and I mean that kinda doesn't get you too many points with your mother. I'm working on just walking away lol, but in the middle of dinner with my dad that ussually gets you into more trouble then if you jst asked what the heck was wrong with her food.

Hmmmm, well I suppose I'm done rambling for now, I don't know what else I have to do...since my mom's sick her and my dad went to bed about 9, that was obnoxious I was completlly bored, thank you cowgirl for e-mailing me though! So I'll talk to ya all later, love ya!

Water!

2007-09-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

I am seriously craving ice cold water, my mouth feel so so dry and it's driving me crazy...just thougt I'd let you all know.and besides that I'm bored...

I'm home!

2007-09-23T17:02:00.000-07:00

I was at the beach this weekend, with my parents and our Jisu, but my brother stayed with a friend cuz he had a football game....yeah, I see where the priority in the family is not.....jk.
So we had a very very good family friend that just passed away from cancer and it was his daughter that was getting married. And since all of his family lives...not here, and they just came up for the funeral, no one could really come to the wedding, so my family and I really just went to support his wife, the bride's mom, cuz she didn't know a whole ton of people. I dunno how many of you have been to "Oysterville" lol on the Oregon coast but that was where it was at, it's the most adorable little town! The chuch was so cute, tiny tiny, and all the houses were like way old fashioned and it was just adorable. So that was my weekend. Other then the wedding I found a huge rock/wall to climb, and that was fun, I got a few hundred feet up it before anyone told me to get down, I'll put a pic on here, soo if you can find me!!!

Blondes have more fun.

2007-09-20T18:15:00.000-07:00

Well I've always had long long brown hair, and then in 4th grade I cut it, 8 inches, and then cut off 10 more inches, yeah, it was really long, and gave the 10 inches to Locks of Love, and then I decided to do that again, so I grew it until the end of 8th grade and cut it all off and died it blonde. Seriouslly, blondes really do have more fun, I love black and like, goth stuff but I love how bright my hair is. Anyway today I got to sit under the dryer for another hour cuz my regular hair lady was back from vacation and she said she needed to "fix" me cuz she wasn't too happy I had someone else do it when she was gone, but it's all good now, I'm a little blonder then I was yesterday....but it's all good. So that's my story.

Booooooooordom.....

2007-09-20T18:09:00.000-07:00

Sooooo, this is the problem I am facing right now...I have tons of stuff to do, but can't seem to be initiative, but I can't really procrastinate cuz I have nothing else to do.....that's really sad...I guess I could probablly find something to do if really wanted to, but I feel kinda bad for not doing what I'm really supposed to be doing....poor me ad my poor conscience...

Ahhhh, High school....

2007-09-20T17:31:00.000-07:00

Well, I totally couldn't wait until high school started, but I'm so not excited about getting up everyday anymore. It kidna stinks. I mean, my best friends and I got separated at lunch, homework's on overload, my crush is constantly hanging around some girl and for the life of me I can't tell if they're dating or not, I have one class with two of my bffs and that's kinda it, and I was so excited about band, yes I'm a geek, but now I'm totally bumbed aout that cuz all we're doing is pep band stuff. So now I can't even go too all our games without having to play my instrument at them. I'm relaly trying to make the best if it...really I am...but I'm kinda not loving high school so far....life so isn't fair....